I know you will find the person you've been searching for.

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Oh.. finding people is easy.. getting them to notice you... totatlly different ^_^

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Stephen - FX Animator

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i know the reasons u think this is why it is like this, but i know so many people my age, your age, older even, that havent found the one yet, that havent had the love from someone else for a long time, so this isnt just you. It just doesnt help that u live in a small lil village where everyone gets hooked up and moves away, thats all.

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I fall into the older category.

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~Christina~
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Hey... I'm not going to give you my usual chin up speech. You're tired of hearing it anyway. I am going to tell you, you aren't alone in your quest. I'm also going to tell you it isn't impossible to find that person, though I'm still looking. And please don't tell yourself it's because of your illness, in some aspects it is... but that's just one of the stumbling blocks of life.

I've got two stories... one I was a teen and started getting really sick. I found a guy born two days before me, and I fell in love. I thought I was going to marry him. We dated off and on through high school. We lived in different cities and it was a long distance relationship. We wrote several times a week (think before internet was a household thing.) He was supportive of me and very sensitive to what I was going through. I was having tons of tests run to find out what was going on in my body. (It would still be more than five years before we really had the right diagnosis) Eventually it came time for graduation and he joined the Air Force. I asked him what about us. He said he assumed we would get married and have kids. What about my dreams? I broke up with him and went on to nursing school... how I physically made it through was a miracle. We got back together but then something happened and I broke up with him, again. I really think it was all a misunderstanding on my part. And while he's probably happily married I have been trying to find him again... without much luck. He's the only guy I've ever really loved.

The second story is lighter and kind of funny. A long time ago... ok... several years... I still had my feeding tube, maybe I had only had it a year at the time... so maybe 7-8 years ago I joined an online dating site. I learned quickly it wasn't my thing, but not before a man half my age sent me a note saying that he had always wanted to fall in love with a nurse. I told him I had a feeding tube and never heard from him again. So sometimes it can work to my advantage. Although now I've just got my scars from the 'war' with my body, and hopefully I'll never have to have the tube put back in.

It's awful to live in a body that fights against it's self... it's even worse to live in that body and feel like your unlovable. You are Stephen, if you're even half as nice as what I've seen online... any woman would be lucky to have you in her life and love you.

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~Christina~
"Love me. But don't tell me so."~Lilly Bart from House of Mirth

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I cant move anywhere else... Ive never coped being single ever. Friends who live just get random invites through fb or through friends. Im still struggling to even fit back in let alone have that close friend circle.

Its all taking time I just cant emotionaly afford to lose... longer it takes, more harder it gets and further I fall behind and fit in even less.

Thats how I feel.

Id change everything about me if it means i'l fit in.. but not having people to show me or point out what clothes are in.. what people do or what im supposed to do or how to approach girls now just makes me feel blind.. I don't have a clue. If I walk in a show im so over whelmed by how much I have no clue!

Thanx for replying... really missed you about past week. Really hope your ok. Anything I can do for you in return? x

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Stephen - FX Animator

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i been telling you for years its nothing to do with your clothes or what people do, to be unique and happy is all people want.

As for me, my swede broke up with me yesterday, because of the distance, he cant deal with it, he says him missing me is affecting his studies and his friendships, which is why i'm not in the mood to talk, have you tried not having the attention on yourself, not trying to grab it all of the time, people don't like to give attention to those who openly crave it. It's too hard and there's more responsibility in it. If someone spends time with you for an evening you badger them for the rest of the week/month for more attention, You need to learn to be happy in yourself, and then people with draw to you more, noone wants to feel depressed, you know that, people want to be around other people that will make them feel happy, they want to be around people that radiate happiness, and the only way someone can radiate that feeling is if they are happy and comfortable with being alone.

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hehe, you'll get there, and if not, there's plenty of cats looking for homes im sure

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Evil people dont get cuddles!

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Thanx for sharing... I was kinda in same boat. I hoep we both find someone x

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Stephen - FX Animator

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